Anxiety! Every one encounters it! Everyone feels it. Some times it rears its ugly head during trivial times. Some times it hardly shows itself during the most trying struggles! Recently, anxiety didn't show its self until the day before my PET Scan. Its weird being the one inside the box, almost like the senses are dulled. I felt good going into this scan and have had a positive look feeling like im in remission. But that little voice in the back of your head that made it hard to be 100%. I think its natural to have some doubt. That little bit of doubt reminds me of the reality of living with cancer in remission. Each scan is going to be difficult and trying emotionally. But im confidant that we got this bastard! Right now the schedule for PET scans over the next two years is every four months.
The preverbal weight was lifted when I got a glimpse of my scan moments after we finished it. But had to wait for confirmation from my oncologist! Oddly enough I have a good idea what to look for on those scans. Im no expert, but I didn't see the hotspots!
The other great thing is I have been getting on the hill a bit. Trying to go up first thing in the morning for an hour. It feels good to make some turns and been doing a little exploring too. I have been feeling strong and working on my endurance. It seems to me that being on snow is the cleanest atmosphere to be in. Besides it sure feels good to be riding again especially since I didn't think I would be riding for a couple more months...
I have been keeping myself busy starting to get my life organized. Since I haven't been able to do anything since transplant, but i've been getting to know quickbooks. Pretty cool program. I think my taxes are going to be done before the end of the year! Thats a first!
As financially unstable as my life is right now, I'm probably the happiest I have ever been. Shreding in the morning, a little work in the afternoon. If I could keep it going like this for the next while.........
The preverbal weight was lifted when I got a glimpse of my scan moments after we finished it. But had to wait for confirmation from my oncologist! Oddly enough I have a good idea what to look for on those scans. Im no expert, but I didn't see the hotspots!
The other great thing is I have been getting on the hill a bit. Trying to go up first thing in the morning for an hour. It feels good to make some turns and been doing a little exploring too. I have been feeling strong and working on my endurance. It seems to me that being on snow is the cleanest atmosphere to be in. Besides it sure feels good to be riding again especially since I didn't think I would be riding for a couple more months...
I have been keeping myself busy starting to get my life organized. Since I haven't been able to do anything since transplant, but i've been getting to know quickbooks. Pretty cool program. I think my taxes are going to be done before the end of the year! Thats a first!
As financially unstable as my life is right now, I'm probably the happiest I have ever been. Shreding in the morning, a little work in the afternoon. If I could keep it going like this for the next while.........
