Three years ago

Last week was three years since my Stem-cell transplant.  I have been doing a bit of reflecting on what anniversary dates mean.  And for me, they represent moments in time where good and not so good things have happened.  September 27th is a date that is important to me because of the treatment that I had to undertake for Hodgkins.  Last year I got a tattoo to commemorate the two year mark and the likelihood of the lymphoma not coming back, statistically speaking.  I feel great, and thankful for my second chance.  This year has been different.  As I have no reason to be ungrateful, this sept 27th has brought a lot of different emotions.  A little bit of depression.  I have been remembering experiences that weren't so good during my treatment.  And I guess it reminds me that I don't want my friends and family to ever have to experience anything like it.  My friend Dave Tuck that passed away about a month and a half ago fought his hardest, but couldn't beat it.  Then there is Haley Wastel and Chris Mountyjoy that seem to be winning and kicking its ass.  I guess what I'm trying to say is i've been a bit confused with the realty of cancer.  I've been realizing with summer coming to a close and winter just around the corner, that time crepes by so quick.  Ive been working so much just to get back on my feet, I think i've lost track of whats important to me.  And its easy to get caught up in the day to day things that some times its hard to pull back and just enjoy the moment.  I am guilty!  Not sure why I let myself get so caught up with such mundane things.  But I do.  I am human.