As you can imagine the emotions that come along with sickness. Battling Hodgkin's has proved to me that when faced with a mountain of adversity, being persistent and the willingness to fight has been the the mental key to moving forward.
Over the last week, stress, the unknown, even a little depression has finally come to fruition. I talked with my doctor today about going on some anti anxiety meds to help deal with all of this. For a while, I was able to smoke weed to help with the anxiety. But I'm not able to smoke due to the fungus that is in Marijuana. For the most part, it doesn't cause any ill side effects. But with my weaken immune system, I cant afford to have that fungus catch hold. I hate medication and for the record never been into pills. Especially painkillers. For the first time, I'm thinking about taking anti-anxiety meds. I cant believe it... even the thought of it scares me. But I want something to take the edge off. Add to the stress my family is undergoing, its no wonder why cancer is so encompassing. I wonder if the doctor can do a group deal on anti-anxiety and depression meds? hahahaha
This is how unbelievably awesome my community is, Michael Bunchman is a guy that I have known since birth. (I grew up with his older sister Leslie. K-12) Michael and his wife, Jessica Medoff Bunchman, are performing an original cabaret "The Truth About Love". I have yet to see them perform, but all I hear is how amazing they both are. This is something that brings me to tears! I feel so overwhelming grateful that they are doing this in my honor. I love my community I grew up in. That's what I see in Breckenridge!
Check out there web site, Medoffbunchman.com its going to be a great night with a fun reception afterwords. Its august 5th at the new CMC auditorium. Make it if you can. I'm hoping to make it, but not sure if I can be around that many people at once. Michael and Jessica, Thank You.
I'm going into the Frisco hospital for what's called a CBC in about a half hour. Its a blood test to see where my white and red blood cells levels are at. I have to have this done to to see where I stand on getting the next round of chemo done. Which is scheduled for next Tuesday. I feel good, so I'm moving forward!
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Todd, you are so strong. I truly look up to you. I took the anti-anxiety pills, for my plethora of issues with chemo, and it mellowed me out about 90%. I have no doubt it will do the same for you. Stay strong, but when you cant, you have an army of people behind you that will fight for you.
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